2015...Have things Changed? Probably not. But I think I have.

The middle of March 2015. March is often a trigger month for me. I don't know why exactly, but if I reflect on past years, I usually have a major life changing event, an emotional breakdown, meltdown, drunken episode (sometimes all 3 combined) and resolve to get myself together. It hasn't ever actually happened...I mean the getting myself together part. All other mentioned breakdowns, episodes and events have continually been a part of March(es)...and I have given up on trying to avoid them. They have become a tradition- which I am trying to view favourably, as I have realized they are probably never going to disappear from my "cycle of life". I have also decided that I don't need to try and figure out what is triggering me each month of March...who really cares? It might just be a time period in my life when I have to get over myself, and allow myself to mess up...If I can have compassion for friends, family, clients, strangers....can I not allow the same for myself...I hope so.